Alone

Alone

Josh Grubb

Overwhelmed, stressed, desolate, alone, paralyzed. The feelings of despair. Though, these emotions can’t be seen from a far. Joy, smiling, social . . . are some things visible. Do we ever know what someone is feeling. Emotions aren’t as easy to spot. The rough road of putting on a smile, “acting” social, wearing a fake mask of happiness, yet hidden inside is the deep pain of loneliness. It’s exhausting. The constant mood of feeling lost and having to act like everything is alright. Nobody sees the endless hours of thinking. Nobody sees the real pain. The fight for the ultimate goal, happiness. To find happiness in waking up. The ongoing battle going on inside one’s head. The tears and scars that will never leave hidden beneath a slight smile. Don’t forget about the worrisome little voice constantly chirping in your head. He’s always there and a constant reminder of how poor your choices are. This culminates to a single question, why? Why must this pain be here all the time? Why doesn’t this ever end? There seems to be no end in the future. The constant pain will never leave, and will constantly be an ever growing effect on your life. It will leave you questioning every decision, and you never know what comes next.